What was I thinking?

12 units for Fall semester, working a whopping 9 hours a week, three hours of lab a week, and homework! I must have lost my damn mind. This is only the first week of class and I'm already freaking out. I'm not going to have time for anything. I will not have a life for the next three and a half months. Seriously I hope I only have one more semester until I finish, because I don't know if I can keep this up. This sucks!

Whatever

I can't believe that I've neglected my blog for so long. I guess with everything else that's going on, it just gets pushed back. Plus someone that knows me found my blog and while I've always felt that this is my space to say whatever I wanted to, knowing that someone I knew was reading it made it feel like I couldn't say what I wanted to. I know some people consider some subjects sacred and that they just don't talk about them. But this blog is about me and if can't write about me and my true feelings, then what is this space for? So, the short version is that I'm getting divorced and I had posted a couple of times regarding that. I had to take them down, due to this person finding my blog. I really wanted to write about my feelings about the divorce and the problems I was having with my kids and I don't think I've figured out how to do that without dragging them into it. My kids or my ex-husband. I don't want to use this space negatively. So please pardon my dust while I remodel and figure things out. The enteries my be utter nonsense for a while until I get my thoughts straight.

Interesting Info.

I found this article on one of the message boards I participate on. I think any one who weighs in regularly will find the information helpful. Stepping on the scale and not seeing what you want to see can be frustrating and depressing. The scale is not always your best friend and sometimes it outright lies to you! I only weigh myself once a week and I do it first thing in the morning at the same time every week. So far it's worked out pretty well for me. I also take my measurements every week so that even if I can't see that I'm getting smaller, the tape doesn't lie! Have a good weekend, go out and do something!

Something new

I want to try and get back to the original reason I started using the blog. I've lost about 60 pounds and done a ton of research. I want to put all the stuff I found out there so hopefully someone else can use it and hopefully lose weight or adopt a more healthy lifestyle. I list books that I've read and products that I've found that are either food or supplements. I'm not being paid by anyone to write about any of it. I just want to share what has helped me in the hopes that it will help someone else.

So, that being said the first nifty find I want to share is the Lipton green tea To Go packets. They come in several different flavors are sugar and calorie free. My favorites so far are Blueberry Pomegranate and Mandarin Mango. I add a packet of splenda to it, cause I like it a little sweeter, but it does taste good without. You just add the packet to a 16.9 ounce bottle of water and away you go. If you're looking for away to drink more water this will definitely make it easier. Not to mention green tea is great for your metabolism. Drink up!

The original reason

The original reason for my blog title was because I needed to lose weight. I was having massive health problems. Problems with my back, my knees, my feet, not to mention my liver, high blood pressure and near diabetes. I made several half assed attempts to lose weight. I'd lose 10 or 15 pounds and then the weight would stop coming off and I'd give up and then gain it all back plus a little more. Finally when we moved back to Fresno and got medical insurance, I had to go in for a physical. When I stepped on the scale the numbers almost gave me a heart attack. 238 pounds. I'm 5'4". I went right past fat and straight into morbidly obese. I wasn't chubby. I wasn't pleasantly plump. I was morbidly obese. I was 110 pounds over my ideal weight for my height and age. I was in candidate for gastric bypass territory. So I went home and decided that I had to do something. I was pushing 250 and I completely refused to go up another size. I was wearing a size 20. So I cut out fast food and started taking Alli. I followed their meal plan and took the medication as per directions. I started walking. EVERY DAY. For miles. I worked my way up to 4-5 miles a day. The weight actually came off pretty fast. I haven't lost it all, but I'm more than half way there. I've lost 60 pounds. That's more than my daughter weighs. I can carry her now and not be totally out of breath. Eventually I added in strength training and that has helped a lot too. I can feel my muscles underneath the fat and they are actually starting to become visible. It's awesome. I've done a lot of research. Over the next few posts, as I can manage them, I'll write about the books I read, and the websites I've found that really helped me. Hopefully I can help someone else to get to where I am and make a difference in someone's life.

Donate Please!!!!!!!!!!

Not to me. Although if you really want to, I won't stop you. On my sidebar is a nifty little doohicky from BlogHer. It's called GlobalGiving and it's raise money for programs for women around the world. So please give if you can. It's an awesome thing to do. Us women have to stick together. Help a sista out won't you?

Nice

So much for April! I blew it already. I have a good excuse. Several actually, but I can't really say. I doubt anybody cares all that much any way. I'm not starting a pity party, I'm just sayin'. I have a six page paper due for class and I'm struggling. Better to write for class than write a bunch of nonsense that doesn't get read much any way. This last week I had three papers to write for class, plus the six pager, so you can understand that I've been busy. The kids had TWO weeks off for spring break and that threw a huge wrench in the works. The first week was cool, but the second week was awful. From the moment they woke up there was much whining, fighting, and running about the house like their asses were on fire. Kids are great. Now that they've been back to school for a week and a half, things aren't much better. We had a busy, busy weekend. My cousin got married and Sunday was my mom's birthday, and we went to a bbq at my sil's house. I think this weekend I'm going to do not a damn thing.